Working In A Hell

This is another one straight from the heart... As most of the times I write what I feel... I am like a book... you can read what's going on Inside looking at my face...

I can't lie...And I Hate to... Most of my lies have been caught coz my expressions betrayed me... So here's writing another post from "HELL"... You go it..."My Workplace"... And the Hellmates (my colleagues, friends and even bossy)... are so busy in work that they are sticking to their seat since long... And me... Despite having a sprain in my ankle... feel like jumping and taking a nice-long stroll... Trust me... It's so not very comfortable to sit at one place...And the Hell RuleZ have change. They have become as stringent as ever...

1. Don't even you dare budge from the seat when the Bossy is In (which is acceptable to an extent)
2. The Breaks you take will be counted...including your visits to washroom and any tete-a-tete you have with colleagues on the way would be watched carefully over...
3. Even your phone conversations are carefully monitored (as in how many times you make or receive calls)

Any there's a long-list to be followed (which I don't want to list down in favor of the master who has employed this servant)

But Even Hell can be a better place if you have good people around....fortunately, I have my colleagues who always try to cheer me up by teasing me...pulling my leg... And yes as already mentioned they even call me "Drama Queen"...And one of my friends has actually come up with his own definition of a "Drama Queen"... He puts it as:

"Drama Queen is someone who turns something unimportant into a major deal. Someone who blows things way out of proportion when ever the chance is given.
For example: "Oh my god! You copied that without giving the other person credit! That is just mean. You're horrible, don't talk to me. Im gonna go tell everyone what a cruel person you are just so they will pay attention to me and think im cool."

OR

"An annoying person (mostly girls) who always feels like every insignificant problem in her day is a disaster of Tusumani proportions. Anyone who so much as gives her the time of day is in for an endless session of hearing why her boyfriend is such an asshole or how she's fat because she can't wear size 0 jeans along with an all day crying marathon."

So how cool is that working in a Hell... With "Hellmates" who make even hell a better place to "WORK"

Missing My BlogoFRieNDS

Hi All,

Am Missing Ya All so Mucccccccchhhhh... The work is keeping me so busy... WIth big responsibility, comes big work...I have been promoted as a TEAm LeaD and have to Take Care of Entire Team Now... The work and the pressure is increasing.... Few Updated:

1) Finally, I have started talking to Mr. HerO
2) Not Keeping Well, DOwn with Fever
3) DiWaLi was aWeSome... Will post the Pics
4) Most, importantly Miss Ya All sooooooooo Much; and
5) Finally, I am on "TWITTER". Catch with me here

http://twitter.com/priyankakapoor5

Love Ya All.....

It's been a LoOOOOOOOOnG TiME!!!

Holla Guyz,

It's been a really long time since I have not been blogging... It's not that I don't want to... But work is really keeping me very busy these days..."WORK IS WORSHIP".... as my best friend says... To me it really IS... In fact, it's Work that has really worked as a therapy for me right from keeping myself busy to forgetting the past and focusing attention on my career.

Life has started taking a "NEW LEAP"... the past that was haunting me is gradually FADING and NEW HOPES and NEW ASPIRATIONS that were really missing have started taking a shaping...

I am again feeling fresh... ready to begin a "new phase" with fresh dreams, and believe me with more energy than ever....I am CHARGED... REady to take up "New Challenges" that life is posing.... A Little More HAppy and a Little LEss Sad....

Thanks to Almighty for blessing me with such nice friends and family who stand by mee and reinforce that "you are not alone"...

P.S. - Will continue with 'Love Is Blind' a little Later...

No Cell Phones in Office: You Must be "Kidding"

Shocking! Surprising and Really Disgusting! Now I remember A.K.'s words "It sucks to be a corporate s**t"... Social Sites already banned... Going Out Isn't allowed and now they are banning cell phones too.. "They must be Kidding"...

Even many schools these days allow cellphones... What are we supposed to be "Soldiers On the Battle front"... Fighting everyday with something new....

I don't understand "Who make these rulez...". There must be seriously something wrong with these people ...please understand we carry cellphones because we need to de-stress ourselves talking to friends/ family... There can be an emergency message or a call from someone at home..."Cellphones are like the basic needs"

Do NOT Harass the employees by such policies...We know what's wrong or right, when and where to use cellphones... Most importantly, we are "DEMOCRATIC" and we "LOVE OUR FREEDOM" like "YOU DO"

Sleepless Nights: The Dilemma Is Not Easy to 'Handle'

It three days now (oops nights) that I am not able to sleep... I keeping on moving around from one room to another...Or turn sides lying on the bed or sit lonely cribbing and crying...the Dilemma is a not easy to handle... The past is not yet over... it "HAUNTS" me... Trust me it literally does...

I don't know what to do... Though I have planned to move ahead and I am a person who believes in present... but still there is something that's hovering me over... Even when I sleep those deeply upsetting dream disturb me... I am sweating even in the A.C. room...

Worst of all, all that charm on my face has VANISHED... All day long I feel like a "Zombi" moving around... All this is so strange...I don't know what's gonna happen "NEXT"...and I shouldn't worry too... But. ALAS!

Fitness Freak: Not "ME"

Loosing weight is more difficult than gaining it...I never kept fitness (looking slim and smart) as a top priority. I loved the way I looked and to my dismay found myself to be a "Hot topic" among neighborhood "Aunties" (how fat this girl is). I have always been a carefree person. I never realized when I gained weight while growing up...This never bothered me ever as much as other things in life. Like; studying, completing assignments (I was studious to begin with).

Bugged by the society's evil taunts, I tried dieting, workouts, which actually helped me shape-up. But, believe me I did nothing and gained weight much faster than I could even shop for clothes for my new skin. I have always believed that "ek din to sabko marna hai to kyun na khaa peeke, sab kuch try karke maren". I am strongly against those who starve themselves, workout too much and despite a good to show up figure keep cribbing...(are you are trying to say I am the "fattest")

Well, these days I am back again on the "keep yourself fit" routine and trying to loose some of that body fat (And I am determined too loose it all this time)...Kya karen no-one likes to have a "fat girlfriend"...So, lets hope I get in shape at least this time...

Note: While googling, most of the images I found were of fit men/women working out...

20 Friends, 25 Posts and 100 Things You Would Want to Know About Me

It has been a sweet lil journey since I entered the Blogosphere and starting speaking my heart out. Believe me “BLOGGING” is the best thing I have done till date. TO me, it’s more exciting than the first love and more enjoyable than my “First Kiss”. After days of speaking shit, bitching, speaking all that was there in me since years and most importantly making 20 most precious, best-ever friends (my followers of course), here is your CutePriya with some not so funny facts about her.

1. Last beverage: Tea (The worst tea I had in life. No sugar in it)

2. Last phone call: Transport Guy “Madam Cab aa gayi”

3. Last text message: From my classmate and rakhi brother Honey

4. Last song you listened to: Leja Leja by Shreya Ghoshal

5. Last time you cried: This is what I do almost every night, when memories of the past haunt me

HAVE YOU EVER...

6. Dated someone twice: Thrice, and many times; My “Ex”

7. Been cheated on? Of Course. By a Bastard who married another girl after more than five years of relationship.

8. Kissed someone & regretted it? Yes, Yuk why I kissed that frog…

9. Lost someone special? Yes, My Love *Crying*

10. Been depressed? Yes. You all know…

11. Been drunk and threw up? Twice

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12.Pink ( I Love it from the day I was Born)

13. White

14.Red

HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes, so many recently

16. Fallen out of love: Yes

17. Laughed until you cried: So many times :)

18. Met someone who changed you: My EX

19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: No…Never

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Many

23. How many kids do you want to have: A charming baby gal

24. Do you have any pets: No…I can’t actually handle them

25. Do you want to change your name: Never…I truly, deeply, madly love my name

26. What did you do for your last birthday:Went out with my family

27. What time did you wake up today: 9’o clock

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Chatting with Ann and Alps

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: I have learned to keep a lot of patience…

30. Last time you saw your father: Today

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I had a “DELETE” Button to remove that day when my EX approached me…

32. Most visited web page: Orkut, I can’t do without visiting it once at least

Whats your:

33. Name: Priyanka Kapoor

34. Nicknames: Priya, Pinku, Pinks, Guddu, Gudiya,

35. Zodiac sign: Cancer (the most emotional of all the Zodiacs)

36. Male or female or transgendered: Female

37. Elementary: DSMS

38. Schools: Dev Samaj Modern School

39. Colleges: PGDAV College; MBICEM (Madhu Bala Institute Of Communication & Electronic Media)

40. Hair color: Dark Brown

41. Long or short: Short

42. Height: Oops too short to be mentioned

43. Do you have a crush on someone? Ya, you all know about my latest Crush. My Mr. “HerO”

44. Ever been in love? Yes

45. Piercings? 3 Ear piercings

46. Tattoos? No

47. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :

48. First surgery: Nope!

49. First piercing: When I was 5 or 6 probably

50. First best friend: Garima

51. First sport you loved: Badminton

52. First pet : No Pets

53. First vacation: Nainital

54. First concert: Nope

55. First crush: I really don’t remember…confused btwn a classmate and a neighbor

RIGHT NOW:

56. Eating: Chewing actually…

57. Drinking: Nope…

58. I'm about to: Slap my boss (I wish I could do that)

59. Listening to: Boring talks from my colleagues

60. Waiting for: Mr. HerO to come to Office

YOUR FUTURE : Waise I Live in "Present"

61. Want kids? Yes

62. Want to get married? Why not??? Provided I find an ideal match

63. Careers in mind? Nothing... I stopped thinking about it…

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

64. Lips or eyes: Eyes

65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs

66. Shorter or taller: Any person with a good heart will do…

67. Older or Younger: Won’t mind a younger guy, if he’s mature enough

68. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic

69. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice, Strong Arms

70. Sensitive or loud: Essentially Sensitive Towards My Feelings…

71. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship…Am looking for a “Soul-mate”

72. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :

73. Kissed a stranger: Why wud I ever do that???

74. Lost glasses/contacts: Nope. I am really gud at keeping ma things in place

75. Sex on first date: Such a Wild Question…

76. Broken someone's heart: How can I ever do that?

77. Had your own heart broken: How many times will I have to tell you --- YES!

78. Been arrested: No

79. Turned someone down: Yes

80. Cried when someone died: Yes

81. Liked a friend that is a girl? Shut Up!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

81. Yourself: Yes

82. Miracles: No, there is nothing called a “Miracle”…Who invented the word BTW

83. God: Yes

84. Love at first sight: Nope!

85. Heaven: Everything is as bad as HELL…There’s no HEAVEN…

86. Santa Claus: YUP!!!

87. Kiss on the first date? Yes!

88. Angels: Some people are truly “ANGELS”

89. Devils: Yes...there are so many around me…I too behave like one when am Busy “BITCHING”

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

90. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes, my latest "CRUSH"

91. Had more than one boyfriend? Never. I can’t think of sumthing like this…

92. Wanted to kill someone ever? No… I practice “FORGIVE and FORGET”

93. Among your blog mates, whom would you like to kiss? Ammmmm…. No One

94. Committed a blunder and regretted later? Yes… Many times….

95. Wanted to steal your friend's boyfriend? Never…who made this questionnaire???

Associate with someone you know:

96. White: My Papa

97. Black: A.K.

98. Pink: Me and Ann

99. Red: Alps

100. Posting this as 100 Truths? YES

Down with Fever

It's been an average day!!! Nothing than the normal office routine...I am down with fever and feeling so 'IRRITATED'... I feel like throwing my P.C. away in the Dustbin...

Added to that...the cough is taking away all the energy from inside...to top it all...the soar throat which asks for water every five minutes and then I have to rush to the washroom...

I feel like slapping everybody...especially people with 'fake accent'...It seems that the fellow Englishmen have left son behind....('why do people fake so much')

Well, the Friday meeting was a failure...This is what happened:

I looked for him till around... But, he didn't turned up...

when I was going for dinner at 9:30...I saw the man of my dreams standing in casuals...nice tee paired with a pair of jeans...He was looking HOT...

I ran for my friend, who so desperately wanted to have a look at 'My Crush' and text messaged another friend to reach at the reception area...

Woww...the brave lady straight away went to outside the reception area where he was standing...While, the second one went to the washrum...

I got nervous...started panicking and rushed for the washrum...

Both of them scolded me and told me to go out behave normally...I went out while the second friend joined us a little later...

I couldn't raise my eye to even look at him... Any guesses why???

Feeling NERVOUS in the first place and my Mr. HerO;

was having a tete-a-tete with his HOD....

God Somebody help the poor baby... I am so thankful to my friends who saved me...

And, yes finally I Have Sent Him A Friend Request on OrKut...Which is still waiting to be "APPROVED"

Yiiiiippppiiiiiiiieeeee

Keeping Busy???????

Keeping Busy can be harder at times! I know there's lot of work to be done... But there's always an emptiness that surrounds me... I feel like getting away from hustle bustle of the daily life...sitting lonely in lush green environs and listening to those nice...slow...romantic songs...

Working in a corporate world sucks! Believe me! There is nothing much to do except that usual, boring work assignments...Not much except the buildings and the same boring faces to stare at...even the smile on their face is so mechanical...it feels like I have been sentenced to the same routine...Ah! which I am so used to now...

At times, I feel running away...To escape boredom I have started some practicing some new tactics:

1) Writing idiotic, silly posts like this;

2) Listening to songs on my most cherished Sony Ericsson W350i phone. Which I use more for sharing music than receiving calls... There is no one to call this poor baby!

3) Strolling in the office premises in the evenings with my best friend and bitching about everything (believe me I can even bitch about myself)...

4) And the best of all... Going to washroom to dance every time I feel like jumping on a peppy number... Ya know I love dancing...

And, like always... Thanks gain for tolerating me... happy weekend... And "Don't Drink and Drive"... But DO VOTE!!!

BLACKMAILING: WHO THE heck ARE you??????

Since, I don't want to use his real name. This post is dedicated to Mr. X (a 'super-idiot', 'moron' and an ass****) who takes too much pleasure delving into my personal life.

It all started with something I thought was 'leg-pulling' by a friend who commented on post saying 'I know that Gye he hehehh.... and I am going to reveal his name to every body....'. Taking it lightly, I went on replying 'Thank you so much Dear! It'll be a Great Help... Lolz'. The comment was by a name and when I checked on the person was not a blogger and had just registered recently. This didn't bothered me much.

Returning home the same evening, I got a text message from a co-worker saying 'Oye tu ne new boy friend bana liya in such an such department'... I was taken aback for a while and couldn't understand what's happening... Then, I realized that the person had asked me for my blog address few days ago and has been reading my posts thoroughly...

That's so cheap, disgusting???? I felt like slapping left him right on his face (he would have got a tight one if he wud have been in the same cab)... Why is he so bothered about 'what going on in my life'...

And by the way Mr. X, who the hell are you??? I give a damn to you to your way too cheap mentality... Here's something specially CHOSEN ONE for you:

A Child's Ten Commandments To Parents

Well, enough of telling you about my love life... Here is something to show my Cuteness. LOL. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did...

1. My hands are small; so please don't expect perfection when I make a bed,
draw a picture or throw a ball. My legs are short so please slow down so I can keep up with you.

2. My eyes have not seen the world as much as yours have so please let me explore safely. Don't restrict me unnecessarily.

3. Housework will always be there. I'm only little for a short time, please take time to explain things to me abt this world and do so willingly.

4. My feelings are tender; please be sensitive to my needs. Don't nag me all
day long. Treat me as you would like to be treated.

5. I am a special gift from God; please treasure me as God intended u to do, holding me accountable for my actions, giving me guidelines & disciplining me in a loving manner.

6. I need to encouragement to grow & mature. Please go easy on the criticism; remember, you can criticize the things I do without criticizing me.

7. Please give me the freedom to make decisions. Permit me to fail, so I can learn from my mistakes. Then someday I'll be prepared to make the kinds of decisions that life requires of me to do.

8. Please don't do things over for me. Somehow it makes me feel that my efforts didn't quite measure up to ur expectations. I know it's hard, but plz don't try to compare me to my brother or sister.

9. Please don't be afraid to leave for a weekend together. Kids need vacations from parents, just as parents need vacations from kids. It's a great way to show us kids that ur marriage is special.

10. Please take me to church regularly, setting a good example for me to follow. I enjoy learning about God.

Awwwwwww.... Isn't that so CUTEEEEEEE........You must have felt the same as a child... Haven't you????

Source : Dr. Kevin Leman in his book Parenthood Without Hassles, Well Almost

It Had Been A WonderFul Party...

Awwwwwww..... I Feel Like Shouting at the top of my voice....... It had been a WONDERFUL Party.... Today, we had a function to give away the most deserving employees Award....And yes, these functions are best way to mingle...

Unknowingly, today both of us were wearing "BLACK"....... And Guess what My Mr. HerO got the award for the "Best Dressed Male of the Evening"....

Being Introvert will kill me One Day.... We came so closer to each other... Face to Face... Looked at each other for a second... But, me, the most "silliest girl on the planet" couldn't utter that one word that would have been enough to start the conversation...

I didn't "congratulate" him... Well, he might have got the best dressed for the evening but he is my best dressed for every evening... he is the reason for my smile... God Bless Him...

BTW after the function was over...a gang of few young party animals decided to dance on whatever peppy numbers were available.....

It ReAllly Had been a Great Evening...... Thanks for all your wishes... He at least has a hint that someOne Likes him So Much...

About New Found Crush - Update I

Well, as most of you are curious to know about the advances about my new "Crush"... Here is the First Update:

I am following the "Haule-Haule" path like our very own Indian hero Mr. Surendra Sahni... He usually reaches Office between 8:30 - 9:00 p.m. And I am regularly visiting his favorite Ciggerate smoking point to catch a glimpse of this otherwise busy person...

I don't know whether it is a co-incident or what, the day I feel that he is not there in the office...I see him coming in middle of 'nowhere'...

Well, like any other good girl I'll just drop him 'Hints' that I have a strong feelings for him but will never approach...And yes, I have made my first step towards this...After days on searching, finally, I have found him on Orkut to show-up in his 'Recent Visitors List'...And, this I think is enough to make him aware of my intentions, of course if he is not so "dumb"...

Let's see what's "DESTINY" has in store for me!

P.S. : please, please pray for me...

I am Getting Bored...So Bored

There is so much I have worked on...And there is so much to be still worked upon. My job is getting monotonous...with no change on the daily schedule...Sleep...Wake-up...Get ready...get picked by the irritating cab driver who plays those typical "ashiqui" songs. Reach office before the stipulated time...I don't know why we are allowed to go home...the office people should make rat holes for us - the poor workers...

In Office...Turn-On the computer and do same old stuff...time for lunch...get back to work again...time of tea-break...get back to work again...time for dinner...rush for sending the daily report...sign-off...get in the same irritating cab...reach home...and...sleep...

And the Vicious Circle goes-on...

The only respite is the two days off on weekends...Lovely...lovely weekends...two days when I feel so free...

Sometimes I feel like quitting...but the lazy cat inside me is used to this boring routine now...After all my job has given so much to me...respect, love of such nice colleagues and yes money for pursuing my most cherished thingy "shopping"

So...Happy Weekends to all of you...And once again take a lot of rest...Muuuaaah :)

There is so much in life...Until we Realize

This post is about "eternal cribbers" like me who never realize what they have in life...Today I read this great post by QM much about the same thing...

As a child I never realized what I have...despite so much tension between my parents...I had such a loving grandfather...whom I lost when I was just eight years old....Despite all tensions...Life went On...I never had good friends around...until today when I realized my younger sister has always been a true friend...she would go to any extent to protect me and fight people who would try to hurt me...

Feeling lonely...I felt for a person who turned me against my well-wishers...I would not make any friends...Will go to any extent to be with him (bunked college, kept myself free all the time so I could meet him)...But, that's past now...And after all what happened I have realized that, there's is so much beautiful in life until we realize. We can spend entire life cribbing, longing for what we don't have, running after what we want to be and not realizing that life is too short to live...live every moment...past is history, future is yet to come...so why not live in present and make the most of it....

• Thanks to my parents for everything they have given me...
• Thanks to my sister for all her love, care and support...
• Thanks to my friends...
• Thanks to almighty; and
• Thank you all for tolerating and reading this non-sense post :P

And yes, realization doesn't means you have to practice yoga and meditation for hours...

Weekends...I Hate Them

You might me wondering..'Look at this silly girl who doesn't like weekends'. But, that's not true really...Indeed I too Love my share of privacy and free time...But, because of the break-up of my long relationship I don't really feel like moving out anymore...This weekend was a little too boring...I had three long days to go...On Friday I took an Off because of the terrible tooth-ache (my wisdom teeth is sprouting out).

Also, the plan to go out with friends was somehow cancelled and I had to spend time at home (my mother asking me learn cooking and other household chores...no, not again). On Sunday, I went out with my mother for shopping...which used to be my favorite past time...Not anymore...May be I will develop that passion again...Let's see...

I am back in Office and it's feeling great getting back to work again....I Love my Job, my Office and my colleagues.. They are super-fantastic and have made work more fun for me...

Starting a Blog: Ammmm

Starting a blog is so easy...Yes...for many of us, it's just what you call 'Push Button Publishing. But, I am a lazy cat. You will come to know when I will post my pic. Finally, after dayz of deep thinking...Here I am with my first ever blog entry. I have so much to share about my life... For me the journey so far has not been so easy...Being such an introvert... I have faced so many challenges in expressing 'what I want?'

Probably I was taken too much for granted at times....My Love took me too casually...Probably, he took advantage of all those Liberties....I had Set him free to do whatever he feels like, wherever he feels like going...I hardly forced him to take me on a Date... He always made mee feel too kiddish and immature to understand that has so many responsibilities...It really hurts living with a broken heart after those wonderful five years of "committed relationship".

I would sincerely like to thank my parents, friends and the Almighty...who helped me in overcoming the depression and gave me a lease of life...My blog is all about sharing with you all my Life Odyssey as well as the experiences that have help me emerge a into a strong and mature woman.