This Silence...

This silence..
It's so hard to break
Ah! And, I have to put everything on stake...

I wish I could ever Open my Heart..
And let you know...
Why did you go AWAY...
Oh Please, NO!

Every time we talk
It's like an eternal walk
I Really Really want the time to stop!

And, the IRONY of it
When you were close, I never uttered a bit.
I have so much to tell and so much to say
And, I always wanted you to stay
The moment you say Yes Dear,
Don't know what I Fear.

And, shattered and scared, I wonder, this SILENCE...
Why??? It's so hard to break!

P.S. Thanks for all your love on the first attempt...here's the second...:)

Working In A Hell

This is another one straight from the heart... As most of the times I write what I feel... I am like a book... you can read what's going on Inside looking at my face...

I can't lie...And I Hate to... Most of my lies have been caught coz my expressions betrayed me... So here's writing another post from "HELL"... You go it..."My Workplace"... And the Hellmates (my colleagues, friends and even bossy)... are so busy in work that they are sticking to their seat since long... And me... Despite having a sprain in my ankle... feel like jumping and taking a nice-long stroll... Trust me... It's so not very comfortable to sit at one place...And the Hell RuleZ have change. They have become as stringent as ever...

1. Don't even you dare budge from the seat when the Bossy is In (which is acceptable to an extent)
2. The Breaks you take will be counted...including your visits to washroom and any tete-a-tete you have with colleagues on the way would be watched carefully over...
3. Even your phone conversations are carefully monitored (as in how many times you make or receive calls)

Any there's a long-list to be followed (which I don't want to list down in favor of the master who has employed this servant)

But Even Hell can be a better place if you have good people around....fortunately, I have my colleagues who always try to cheer me up by teasing me...pulling my leg... And yes as already mentioned they even call me "Drama Queen"...And one of my friends has actually come up with his own definition of a "Drama Queen"... He puts it as:

"Drama Queen is someone who turns something unimportant into a major deal. Someone who blows things way out of proportion when ever the chance is given.
For example: "Oh my god! You copied that without giving the other person credit! That is just mean. You're horrible, don't talk to me. Im gonna go tell everyone what a cruel person you are just so they will pay attention to me and think im cool."

OR

"An annoying person (mostly girls) who always feels like every insignificant problem in her day is a disaster of Tusumani proportions. Anyone who so much as gives her the time of day is in for an endless session of hearing why her boyfriend is such an asshole or how she's fat because she can't wear size 0 jeans along with an all day crying marathon."

So how cool is that working in a Hell... With "Hellmates" who make even hell a better place to "WORK"

Is it A New Leap... Or Things are Same... I Don't KNOW

THINGS CHANGE... PEOPLE "Change"... and Change is Inevitable... It's a NEcEssary "EViL"... You can help it... After every dark phase comes light....

But, why am I talking about all this... I don't know where Life is taking me... I am just flowing with the time.... Cribbing, crying yet enjoying what Life has given me... After long.. I am Writing... It Feels Great to Back... Coz I am so Rich today... Guess Why???

Rich with your love and Care... Rich with such nice friends around... Rich with memories, emotion, passion for something new that will be coming... I am "Fighting" and so glad that now I am not AloNe... I have my you (friends) around...

Gradually... I am restoring the lost confidence and very gradually the "Trust" I had lost...

In some way or in many the things have change... The "InTroVert" has "OpeNed" to the World... And a bolder, chubbier and sometimes childish me is coming out... This post is an expression of my true self today... A NewEr "ME"....

"VERY VERY ME"

I am Humbled

Thanks Mahesh...

I am really glad to make you smile and receive such an honor from you.... I don't have words to express how happy you've made me giving this "AWARD"... and it feels great that there are a few people who remember you even when you're not around... You, Sourav, Megha, Varun are few of the friends who always keep on looking for updates on my blog and it's your love and appreciation that drives me to keep my blog alive....

Thanks a million for you love, support and care that my blog is still surviving... Will soon continue writing and updating like before... Really Miss you all A LoooooOT!!!

Confessions of a BOLLYWOOD FAN

I am a BIG BOLLYWOOD FAN.....Whether it's movies, songs, latest fashion trends... I LOve them All... In fact, sometimes I am called a "DRAMA QUEEN" by my friends....Guess why... I Follow Bollywood to the CORE...

I make funny, cute, silly, sad faces according to the mood... will become sad one moment... and happy in another... you can catch me by EXpressions ON My Face... That's not all!

Even my dressing style is MUCH Filmi... I wear WHITE, Ugly and the oldest of the Clothes when I am not I a good mood... Infact, I don't feel like ironing them at times... While at others... I crave for attention wearing the most Stylish Clothes with "ALL EYES ON ME"...

Coming to Songs...My Mood Swings with songs...I can cry like HELL listening to a couple of songs...while there are songs to which I feel like jumping with joy... NO MATTER... where I am... In cab while commuting, at workplace, in kitchen or in bathroom...

I am sure many of you might have some similar interests... Or I am the Only CRAZY LADY...

P.S. While writing this post I was listening to a Peppy Bollywood number... can't control my feet from tapping... BOSS IS OUT (Yippi)

It's been a LoOOOOOOOOnG TiME!!!

Holla Guyz,

It's been a really long time since I have not been blogging... It's not that I don't want to... But work is really keeping me very busy these days..."WORK IS WORSHIP".... as my best friend says... To me it really IS... In fact, it's Work that has really worked as a therapy for me right from keeping myself busy to forgetting the past and focusing attention on my career.

Life has started taking a "NEW LEAP"... the past that was haunting me is gradually FADING and NEW HOPES and NEW ASPIRATIONS that were really missing have started taking a shaping...

I am again feeling fresh... ready to begin a "new phase" with fresh dreams, and believe me with more energy than ever....I am CHARGED... REady to take up "New Challenges" that life is posing.... A Little More HAppy and a Little LEss Sad....

Thanks to Almighty for blessing me with such nice friends and family who stand by mee and reinforce that "you are not alone"...

P.S. - Will continue with 'Love Is Blind' a little Later...

LOVE IS BLIND - I

Love is the best feeling! It’s great to be love and it’s wonderful to love someone. It’s been a long time I wanted to share a “Strange Story” (story of love, passion and emotions) that somehow ended badly. I know am not as good as my other friends… And since this is my first attempt of writing a love story, I’ll choose to tell you this one. It’s so much close to reality and it’s about someone whom I have known so closely…

She was like a child, so innocent, no idea how the world around her revolves… She had her own fairy-tale notions… that everything in world goes out so smoothly… to her even the badest of the bad people had good in them…she took herself as the ‘god own child’… ‘Practicing forgive and forget’… she left way for the ants to pass by so that they are not crushed under her feet…To her world was a dreamland…Even after what has happened to her… she has remained unchained… I see her today like always, bubbling, singing, dancing and acting… Yes ACTING like nothing has happened….

She has lost her LOVE… you might think what’s new in that…People lose and then find someone again… But this is story of her true sacrifice that she made just to be with her love for the rest of her life…She even told him, when asked repeatedly…’I am not gonna MARRY someone else if I lose you’…

Today, I see her trying… every bit of her trying to forget him and start afresh… She tries her best but she CAN’t… She mentions his name at least 1000 times a day… Despite the BETRAYAL… she says “He was the BEST”…

I Love Blogging!

Confession:

I just love blogging to the core... It the place where I can yell, shout, cry, crib, get cool tips, meet and have met so many great friends...

Whenever I am feeling low, wanna cry, wanna share something funny or wanna get noticed... This is the place to be.... And I Love It! Love It! Love It!

I feel so much better and relaxed once I "Speak my HEART OUT" on my blog.... It's feels wonderful... can't describe the feeling "How great it is to blog".....

Blogging one of the best things that has helped me come out of my depression. Reading cool, funny, emotional, romantic and touchy posts of my "blogger friends" is AWESOME!

To me blogging is even better than the "FIRST LOVE"....

But, alas working in a corporate world doesn't give me time to blog... But, I blog whenever I get time!

Holla Guyz..... I am Back!

First of all, Hi to all my wonderful blogger friends... I am back... The Exams are Over and so is the final year of my Master's Degree? I wold love to read everyone's blog... Actually I am dying...

Trust me it was too boring for a workaholic me to sit idle at home... Studying...sleeping..and eating was the usual routine... "NO TV" like the good little schoolgirl... I am back to work too and has so many assignments to deal with...

Finally, the hardwork has paid-off with considerable good "PROMOTION"... Seriously... I missed all of you a LOTTT!!! B'day waz fun... I had a GR888 Time with my family...

I was reluctant to go first but finally said "YES" for watching Kambakht Ishq... In the evening a surprise awaited at home... Cake and party...

How can I forget my gift... A teddybear and card from my sisters... The card is the best one I have ever got and the Deddy... ooops Teddy Bear is soo Cute....

My friends too have gifted me a really sweet, smelling perfume... I loved it!

Now it's Friday and I am making plans to have a restful and fun-filled weekend, if I get to go out...

Leaving With A Heavy Heart But Ami Aschi (I'll be back)

It's been a sad moment for me... I am leaving my Office (for few days though).... But, I'll be missing everyone:

1) My colleagues na my bestest of the best friends actually (they are my biggest support)
Ann, Alps, Akum and everyone else

2) I'll be missing my blogger friends to coz I hardly have access to P.C. at home (Miss Ya Guyz)

3) I'll be missing "WORK" (coz for me its like food for survival)

4) And last but not the least I'll be Missing the Man who has brought my Smiles back (you got it my Mr. HerO). To whom I am not able to speak yet.

I have taken a 15 days leave for Exams. But, hey guyz, don't forget to wish me on B'day which falls on next Sunday (July 5)... I'll let you know how I celebrated it... Will post the pics too (if I get time)....

Here's wishing you all "Good Luck".... Happy Blogging... Miss Ya All A LOTTTTT.....

LOve,
CutePriya :)

Random Thoughts!

Sitting in the Office... I am getting a little bored... yeah! I have completed all the assignments... waiting for something new... I was talking to a friend online who like me has gone through a really bad phase of a relationship...

Ya Know! I can very much understand her feelings coz we're kinda sailing in the same boat... She told me that she fine! Not good and waiting for that someone special to fill her life with happiness again...

To this I replied is that "someone special" really important in life... Probably you can have a good life even if he/she's not around. You have all the Freedom...No one to hold you back... you have rich time... every moment to spare on you...do whatever you want to...go wherever you feel like....

No Irritating phone calls... And best of all you have time to get closer to your family (whom who have kinda ignored a lot)...

Probably I am right... Probably I am wrong... But this is how I feel right now...Do tell me how you feel... In Other Words baby

"I AM REALLY ENJOYING MY SINGLETON"

There is something else that I would Love to Share:

We Work for a Better Tomorrow, but when "TOMORROW" comes, instead of Enjoying, we again think of a better tomorrow. So let Us have a better "TODAY"....

(a text msg by a friend)

What NXT???

With Working keeping me really busy... I am hardly getting time to keep in touch with blogging... There is so much work piled up.... God Save the poor child...

Well, Am so Confused (worried actually)..... as to be what NEXt???? Don't knw what to do.... How to be friends with him and tell him that I actually like him... It's really difficult know coz this is a very tricky situation.... Another thing whenever I come in contact with him... My Lips are sealed (as if someone has pasted them with a glue)... I am not able to utter a single "WORD".... Moreso, he also just looks at me and never utters a WORD...

Well, I thought may be my blogger friends could help! Save me and Pray for me...

Made the "FIRST MOVE"... Thanks to Ma Friends!!!

Oops I did it! Yeah I did It! Finally after months of Hardwork, struggle, persistant efforts finally I have "Initiated the Conversation"

Remember the "TIP" my friend gave me. I followed it and was actually able to talk to him... Well there is more to this story. All this couldn't have been possible without one of my bestest of the best friends in Office.

One of my friends tried his best to reach Mr. HerO so that he could create a room for me to talk... First he tried talking to some of his friends in the same department, so they can introduce me to him. But, this didn't worked because his friend was more of a shy guy....But, I think he conveyed the message that there is a girl who kinda likes you!

Just then my friend thought of something else... (He is "TOO Smart").... He went straight to him... asked him that I have some friends interested in working in his department.... But, My Mr. HerO is rather "Smarter".... He didn't gave him his number, instead told him to mail the CV.

Next Day was the "Final"... My Mr. HerO was standing alone at his 'Cigarette Smoking point'... My friend saw this as an Opportunity and took me straight to him... Even I asked the same Question, asked him about some other Openings, Thanked him and this was it to begin the conversation.

Well a word of Thanks...

Thank you to my friend Mr. A, Ms. Ann and Ms. Alps who were always there in my "Mission" frequenting the 'Cigarette Smoking Point' and enforcing and re-enforcing that courage and determination that "GO GET HIM Girl"

Sleepless Nights: The Dilemma Is Not Easy to 'Handle'

It three days now (oops nights) that I am not able to sleep... I keeping on moving around from one room to another...Or turn sides lying on the bed or sit lonely cribbing and crying...the Dilemma is a not easy to handle... The past is not yet over... it "HAUNTS" me... Trust me it literally does...

I don't know what to do... Though I have planned to move ahead and I am a person who believes in present... but still there is something that's hovering me over... Even when I sleep those deeply upsetting dream disturb me... I am sweating even in the A.C. room...

Worst of all, all that charm on my face has VANISHED... All day long I feel like a "Zombi" moving around... All this is so strange...I don't know what's gonna happen "NEXT"...and I shouldn't worry too... But. ALAS!

20 Friends, 25 Posts and 100 Things You Would Want to Know About Me

It has been a sweet lil journey since I entered the Blogosphere and starting speaking my heart out. Believe me “BLOGGING” is the best thing I have done till date. TO me, it’s more exciting than the first love and more enjoyable than my “First Kiss”. After days of speaking shit, bitching, speaking all that was there in me since years and most importantly making 20 most precious, best-ever friends (my followers of course), here is your CutePriya with some not so funny facts about her.

1. Last beverage: Tea (The worst tea I had in life. No sugar in it)

2. Last phone call: Transport Guy “Madam Cab aa gayi”

3. Last text message: From my classmate and rakhi brother Honey

4. Last song you listened to: Leja Leja by Shreya Ghoshal

5. Last time you cried: This is what I do almost every night, when memories of the past haunt me

HAVE YOU EVER...

6. Dated someone twice: Thrice, and many times; My “Ex”

7. Been cheated on? Of Course. By a Bastard who married another girl after more than five years of relationship.

8. Kissed someone & regretted it? Yes, Yuk why I kissed that frog…

9. Lost someone special? Yes, My Love *Crying*

10. Been depressed? Yes. You all know…

11. Been drunk and threw up? Twice

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12.Pink ( I Love it from the day I was Born)

13. White

14.Red

HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes, so many recently

16. Fallen out of love: Yes

17. Laughed until you cried: So many times :)

18. Met someone who changed you: My EX

19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: No…Never

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Many

23. How many kids do you want to have: A charming baby gal

24. Do you have any pets: No…I can’t actually handle them

25. Do you want to change your name: Never…I truly, deeply, madly love my name

26. What did you do for your last birthday:Went out with my family

27. What time did you wake up today: 9’o clock

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Chatting with Ann and Alps

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: I have learned to keep a lot of patience…

30. Last time you saw your father: Today

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I had a “DELETE” Button to remove that day when my EX approached me…

32. Most visited web page: Orkut, I can’t do without visiting it once at least

Whats your:

33. Name: Priyanka Kapoor

34. Nicknames: Priya, Pinku, Pinks, Guddu, Gudiya,

35. Zodiac sign: Cancer (the most emotional of all the Zodiacs)

36. Male or female or transgendered: Female

37. Elementary: DSMS

38. Schools: Dev Samaj Modern School

39. Colleges: PGDAV College; MBICEM (Madhu Bala Institute Of Communication & Electronic Media)

40. Hair color: Dark Brown

41. Long or short: Short

42. Height: Oops too short to be mentioned

43. Do you have a crush on someone? Ya, you all know about my latest Crush. My Mr. “HerO”

44. Ever been in love? Yes

45. Piercings? 3 Ear piercings

46. Tattoos? No

47. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :

48. First surgery: Nope!

49. First piercing: When I was 5 or 6 probably

50. First best friend: Garima

51. First sport you loved: Badminton

52. First pet : No Pets

53. First vacation: Nainital

54. First concert: Nope

55. First crush: I really don’t remember…confused btwn a classmate and a neighbor

RIGHT NOW:

56. Eating: Chewing actually…

57. Drinking: Nope…

58. I'm about to: Slap my boss (I wish I could do that)

59. Listening to: Boring talks from my colleagues

60. Waiting for: Mr. HerO to come to Office

YOUR FUTURE : Waise I Live in "Present"

61. Want kids? Yes

62. Want to get married? Why not??? Provided I find an ideal match

63. Careers in mind? Nothing... I stopped thinking about it…

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

64. Lips or eyes: Eyes

65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs

66. Shorter or taller: Any person with a good heart will do…

67. Older or Younger: Won’t mind a younger guy, if he’s mature enough

68. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic

69. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice, Strong Arms

70. Sensitive or loud: Essentially Sensitive Towards My Feelings…

71. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship…Am looking for a “Soul-mate”

72. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :

73. Kissed a stranger: Why wud I ever do that???

74. Lost glasses/contacts: Nope. I am really gud at keeping ma things in place

75. Sex on first date: Such a Wild Question…

76. Broken someone's heart: How can I ever do that?

77. Had your own heart broken: How many times will I have to tell you --- YES!

78. Been arrested: No

79. Turned someone down: Yes

80. Cried when someone died: Yes

81. Liked a friend that is a girl? Shut Up!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

81. Yourself: Yes

82. Miracles: No, there is nothing called a “Miracle”…Who invented the word BTW

83. God: Yes

84. Love at first sight: Nope!

85. Heaven: Everything is as bad as HELL…There’s no HEAVEN…

86. Santa Claus: YUP!!!

87. Kiss on the first date? Yes!

88. Angels: Some people are truly “ANGELS”

89. Devils: Yes...there are so many around me…I too behave like one when am Busy “BITCHING”

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

90. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes, my latest "CRUSH"

91. Had more than one boyfriend? Never. I can’t think of sumthing like this…

92. Wanted to kill someone ever? No… I practice “FORGIVE and FORGET”

93. Among your blog mates, whom would you like to kiss? Ammmmm…. No One

94. Committed a blunder and regretted later? Yes… Many times….

95. Wanted to steal your friend's boyfriend? Never…who made this questionnaire???

Associate with someone you know:

96. White: My Papa

97. Black: A.K.

98. Pink: Me and Ann

99. Red: Alps

100. Posting this as 100 Truths? YES

Down with Fever

It's been an average day!!! Nothing than the normal office routine...I am down with fever and feeling so 'IRRITATED'... I feel like throwing my P.C. away in the Dustbin...

Added to that...the cough is taking away all the energy from inside...to top it all...the soar throat which asks for water every five minutes and then I have to rush to the washroom...

I feel like slapping everybody...especially people with 'fake accent'...It seems that the fellow Englishmen have left son behind....('why do people fake so much')

Well, the Friday meeting was a failure...This is what happened:

I looked for him till around... But, he didn't turned up...

when I was going for dinner at 9:30...I saw the man of my dreams standing in casuals...nice tee paired with a pair of jeans...He was looking HOT...

I ran for my friend, who so desperately wanted to have a look at 'My Crush' and text messaged another friend to reach at the reception area...

Woww...the brave lady straight away went to outside the reception area where he was standing...While, the second one went to the washrum...

I got nervous...started panicking and rushed for the washrum...

Both of them scolded me and told me to go out behave normally...I went out while the second friend joined us a little later...

I couldn't raise my eye to even look at him... Any guesses why???

Feeling NERVOUS in the first place and my Mr. HerO;

was having a tete-a-tete with his HOD....

God Somebody help the poor baby... I am so thankful to my friends who saved me...

And, yes finally I Have Sent Him A Friend Request on OrKut...Which is still waiting to be "APPROVED"

Yiiiiippppiiiiiiiieeeee